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Sep. 21st, 2005 12:53 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
demonbelthazorDate with Phoebe went well -- almost. Shimmered us away from the school so no creepy annoying girls could show up and say "Oh no, Phoebe, don't go with him, he's eeeeeeeeevil!" Was a great time until...she said she was in love with me.
Shit. Way to ruin a good thing. I thought we were just having fun. She's probably going to tell her sister, too, and blow that wide open. Then again, Piper's giving me the pouty "Why haven't you called" looks, so I should just dump both of them. But...
Why did it feel so good when she said she loved me? Why am I starting to feel guilty and feeling like I don't want to hurt her (or her sister for that matter)? What the hell am I going to do about this? "Learn to live with humans and think like them," Raynor said. Fine, but I don't want to feel like one. Fuck that. Some girl's tears actually kinda got to me a little while ago. Gotta put a stop to that FAST.
Shimmered to the Underworld before classes this morning to talk to Raynor. (Did not mention Phoebe at all.) He had a warlock cast a spell on me that will prevent above mentioned creepy annoying girls from reading my mind or sensing my thoughts. No telepath or precog or whatever should be able to penetrate the spell, except maybe a Charmed One. But they don't exist, not now at least. The Source would know if their power was active. So no worries there. (Though it's tempting, given what Angelus told me about Maia and Sidle last night, to fill my head with thoughts of stripping Sidle naked and let Maia feast on that. Heh. Would be interesting to see if it would excite or disturb her more.)
Think I may skip history this afternoon, though. I don't feel like dealing with my Halliwell issues today.
Shit. Way to ruin a good thing. I thought we were just having fun. She's probably going to tell her sister, too, and blow that wide open. Then again, Piper's giving me the pouty "Why haven't you called" looks, so I should just dump both of them. But...
Shimmered to the Underworld before classes this morning to talk to Raynor. (Did not mention Phoebe at all.) He had a warlock cast a spell on me that will prevent above mentioned creepy annoying girls from reading my mind or sensing my thoughts. No telepath or precog or whatever should be able to penetrate the spell, except maybe a Charmed One. But they don't exist, not now at least. The Source would know if their power was active. So no worries there. (Though it's tempting, given what Angelus told me about Maia and Sidle last night, to fill my head with thoughts of stripping Sidle naked and let Maia feast on that. Heh. Would be interesting to see if it would excite or disturb her more.)
Think I may skip history this afternoon, though. I don't feel like dealing with my Halliwell issues today.
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Date: 2005-09-21 06:09 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-09-21 08:27 pm (UTC)(And Belthazor idly wonders how Angelus could read a private entry, but everything that's not struck out is nothing he wouldn't have told Angelus about anyway, so it's all good.)
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Date: 2005-09-21 08:33 pm (UTC)(ooc: And I'm a moron, so my bad.)